Everyone in the club looked just the same as ever. He
did not know why he should have expected them to look different. It was
a comfort. These men, living for many years with one another‘s lives
that were methodically regulated, had acquired a number of little idiosyncrasies
— one of them hummed incessantly while he played bridge, another
insisted on drinking beer through a straw — and these tricks which
had so often irritated the taipan now gave him a sense of security. He
needed it, for he could not get out of his head that strange sight he
had seen; he played bridge very badly, his partner was censorious, and
the taipan lost his temper. He thought the men were looking at him oddly.
He wondered what they saw in him that was unaccustomed.
Suddenly he felt he could not bear to stay in the club
any longer. As he went out he saw the doctor reading The Times in the
reading-room, but he could not bring himself to speak to him. He wanted
to see for himself whether that grave was really there and stepping into
his chair he told his bearers to take him to the cemetery. You couldn‘t
have an hallucination twice, could you? And besides, he would take the
overseer in with him and if the grave was not there he wouldn‘t
see it, and if it was he‘d give the overseer the soundest thrashing
he‘d ever had. But the overseer was nowhere to be found. He had
gone out and taken the keys with him. When the taipan found he could not
get into the cemetery he felt suddenly exhausted. He got back into his
chair and told his bearers to take him home. He would lie down for half
an hour before dinner. He was tired out. That was it. He had heard that
people had hallucinations when they were tired. When his boy came in to
put out his clothes for dinner it was only by an effort of will that he
got up. He had a strong inclination not to dress that evening, but he
resisted it; he made it a rule to dress, he had dressed every evening
for twenty years and it would never do to break this rule. But he ordered
a bottle of champagne with his dinner and that made him feel more comfortable.
Afterwards he told the boy to bring him the best brandy. When he had drunk
a couple of glasses of this he felt himself again. Hallucinations be damned!
He went to the billiard-room and practised a few difficult shots. There
could not be much the matter with him when his eye was so sure. When he
went to bed he sank immediately into a sound sleep.
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