Unhappy marriages so resemble one another
that we do not need to know too much about the course of this one. There
may or may not have been trouble on Guam, where Cork and Lucille Miller
lived while he finished his Army duty. There may or may not have been
problems in the small Oregon town where he first set up private practice.
There appears to have been some disappointment about their move to California.
Cork Miller had told friends that he wanted to become a doctor, that he
was unhappy as a dentist and planned to enter the Seventh-Day Adventist
College of Medical Evangelists at Loma Linda, a few miles south of San
Bernardino County, and the family settled there, in a modest house on
the kind of street where there are always tricycles and revolving credit
and dreams about bigger houses, better streets. That was 1957. By the
summer of 1964 they had achieved the bigger house on the better street
and the familiar accouterments of a family on its way up: the $30,000
a year, the three children for the Christmas card, the picture window,
the family room, the newspaper photographs that showed “Mrs. Gordon
Miller, Ontario Heart Fund Chairman...” They were paying the familiar
price for it. And they had reached the familiar season of divorce.
It might have been anyone‘s bad summer, anyone‘s siege of
heat and nerves and migraine and money worries, but this one began particularly
early and particularly badly. On April 24 an old friend, Elaine Hayton,
died suddenly, Lucille Miler had seen her only the night before. During
the month of May, Cork Miller was hospitalized briefly with a bleeding
ulcer, and his usual reserve deepened into depression. He told his accountant
that he was "sick of looking at open mouths," and threatened
suicide. By July 8, the conventional tensions of love and money had reached
the conventional impasse in the new house on the acre lot at 8488 Bella
Vista, and Lucille Miller filed for divorce. They saw a marriage counsellor.
They talked about a fourth child. It seemed that the marriage had reached
the traditional truce, the point at which so many resign themselves to
cutting both their losses and their hopes.
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