Not surprising, given that her past was full of stories of rejection, abandonment
by her parents and being left even in the foster home to her own defenses,
Julie is fearful of those in positions of authority. As a single parent,
she looks to her friends to provide her with emotional support and information.
Julie also marvels at the openness and non-judgmental nature of the bible.
Julie states, "I am starting to see a little bit with Christ beside me. He's
the biggy - the main one in my life…He's the one that gives me strength
to keep on going." Julie appears to be looking for guidance in her complex
life and to help her come to terms with her past trauma.
Julie's reading centres around finding answers: "I read a lot about
uh - well, I haven't read in awhile there but I was interested in reading
like
uh - different books about …God and…the bible…" Her
home features various religious artifacts, including crosses, statues of
Jesus and a wall hanging
that reads, "Jesus said: I am the way, the truth, and the life: no
man cometh unto the Father, but by Me — John 14:6." Unfamiliar
with the New Testament, Rev. Ronald Maund (personal communication, March
18, 2003) highlighted for
me that this passage is a well-known quote from the Gospel of John. It is
often read at funeral services, giving the assurance to family members that
if the deceased person has believed in Jesus, there will be a place for him
or her in God's eternal kingdom. It basically conveys the truth that faith,
which includes commitment and belief, in God's son Jesus is the only requirement
for admission to everlasting life with God. In reflecting upon this piece
of the scripture and Julie's
life circumstances, it could mean that Julie is looking to Jesus to show
her the way to help her to keep her faith for a reward in the hereafter.
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