I began searching for something more to offer learners. Coincidentally, a pamphlet for the Violence and Learning: Taking Action Project crossed my desk. I enthusiastically responded to the application and was invited to join. I recognized the VALTA Project as an opportunity to expand my knowledge on the ways in which violence, or experiences of violence, can affect lives and learning for many individuals, even in the years after the experience.

As I participated in the VALTA workshops and online course, I continued to work with the writing group and to explore ways to apply what I was learning in my program.20 As the course progressed, I was more intent about responding more thoughtfully to the situations learners shared with me. My interest in fostering their abilities to move forward in their lives led me to do a Changing Practices research project about self-concept.

The Research

When contemplating the topic for my Changing Practices project I started by considering the needs of those who came to the program to improve their literacy skills. As a coordinator, I had quickly learned that my role is multi-faceted. Individuals who join literacy programs often bring concerns in their personal lives that can make it difficult to learn. They often lack confidence that they can stick to a program and meet their goals, so the coordinator assumes the role of cheerleader, enthusiast, and supporter.

Time and again I revisited the concern I had regarding the way learners felt about themselves. They didn't really seem to believe in their own capabilities, which was made evident by their repetitive use of phrases such as: "I can't," "I won't ever," "It's no use," "It's hopeless," "I've been told" and "I know I'll fail." I wondered how anyone could have success in a literacy program if they didn't truly believe in themselves.

20 I also applied the knowledge I gained through the VALTA Project into other areas of my life. I led a weeknight violence awareness workshop with eight junior high boys. They discussed the impact of violence on their lives and on society in general, and created posters and planned how to form a group to speak out against violence in their world. I also facilitated a weekly writing group within the school system for students referred by the school resource counselor. This provided the opportunity to address issues of violence and learning with the 15 children in the program. While none of the children were directly involved in my Changing Practices project they benefited from what I had learned as a member of the VALTA team.