[I got] so much insight into myself; it was earth shattering. The amorphous nature of many life skills exercises irritated or confused some: It's soft knowledge, I'm not used to that ... talking about very vague things like decision-making. It's wishy washy. I'm not an abstract thinker ... a lot of the atmosphere was kind of abstract, in that there was no right or wrong way. ... When the course was over I was very confused. ... I came back again to the way I had always done things. It was a waste of time. ... There was almost chaos initially. I don't think anyone knew what it was we were there for or how we would get new skills or whatever. ... We played a lot of guidance counsellor type games. ... Basically it was get to know yourself; try to find out what your skills are. Most people knew what their skills were. Most of them were rusty people who had worked 15, 20 years ago, and knew exactly what they could do, but maybe didn't have a whole lot of confidence. I should add that another participant found this particular aspect of the course - that "you discover you have the same skills at 40 as at 20" - a useful self-discovery rather than a waste of time. I was surprised by the extent to which so many women in the course reported that they had low confidence in themselves even when, in most cases, they struck me as very competent and articulate people. Looking at our first job experience. How are we going to be able to do that? We were quite worried about that ... [we asked for] just a lot of reassurance on how to deal with people. ...The material in the course reinforced that even though we sat home and raised our kids we still had skills. Another woman's comment may suggest the origin of this low self-esteem that she and others brought to the course: For most of us up to that point in our lives we only were known as somebody's wife or somebody's mother. ...I didn't even know their husbands' names. It didn't matter. We were accepted as people not as part and parcel of something else. To summarize, reactions to the course were highly variable. Among the twenty-two women I met, evaluations varied from "fluff" to the "best thing that ever happened to me." On-the-Job Placements Outcomes The other five were employed by non-profit organizations: two charities and two hospitals. All were in charge of a department, but the jobs varied considerably in levels of responsibility; two would certainly be recorded in the census as supervisors rather than managers. The pattern that struck me was that these women 'managers' had reached the top end of what was still a traditional labour force place for women. Even with the best intentions and methods, the course did not break women out of their traditional segment of the job market. |
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