"How do you feel?" ". . . Stupid. . ."


CAROL: No. No. There are people out there. People who came here.

To know something they didn't know. Who came here. To be helped. To be helped. So someone would help them. To do something. To know something. To get, what do they say? "To get on in the world." How can I do that if I don't, if I fail? But I don't understand. I don't understand. I don't understand what anything means. . . and I walk around, from morning 'til night with this one thought in my head. I'm stupid.

JOHN: No one thinks you're stupid.

CAROL: No? what am I . . . ?

JOHN: I . . .

CAROL: . . . what am I, then?

JOHN: I think you're angry. Many people are. I have a telephone call that I have to make.

And an appointment, which is rather pressing; though I sympathize with your concerns and though I wish I had the time, this was not a previously scheduled meeting and I . . .

CAROL: . . . you think I'm nothing. . .

JOHN: . . . have an appointment with a realtor, and with my wife and...

CAROL: You think I'm stupid.

JOHN: No, I certainly don't.

CAROL: You said it.

JOHN: No. I did not.

CAROL: You did.

JOHN: When?

CAROL: . . . you. . .

JOHN: No. I never did, nor never would say that to a student, and. . .

CAROL: You said, "What can that mean?" (Pause) "What can that mean? . . .(Pause)

JOHN: . . . and what did that mean to you. . .?

CAROL: That meant I'm stupid. And I'll never learn. That's what that meant. And you're right.

JOHN: . . . I . . .

CAROL: But then. But then, what am I doing here. . .?

JOHN: . . . if you thought that I . . .

CAROL: . . . when nobody wants me, and. . .

JOHN: . . . if you interpreted. . .

CAROL: Nobody tells me anything. And I sit here. . . in the corner. In the back.

And everybody's talking about "this" all the time. And "concepts: and "percepts" and, and, and, and, and, WHAT IN THE WORLD ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? And I read your book. And they said, "Fine, go in that class." Because you talked about responsibility to the young. I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT MEANS AND I'M FAILING. . .

From Oleanna: A Play by David Mamet. Copyright © 1992 by David Mamet. Reprinted by permission of Pantheon Books, a division of Random House, Inc.





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